The Bulls, The Bears, The Me

The Stock Market was always something that I kept safe distance from. Somehow in the winter of 2007 I fell to the temptation of the bulls and the bears.

I am a safe player. I did all kinds of calculations, kept away from the costly blue chip scrips, chose some small yet promising ones and invested around 20 grands across 3 stocks.

I kept track of the market daily and monitored my portfolio on an hourly basis. This is what is called First Time Investor Syndrome... and it had struck me big time.

Over the next few months the market leapt to record highs... I was ecstatic. The small investor in me had made some extra dough. But then First Time Investor Syndrome didn't prompt me to sell my stocks and enjoy the extra dough :( I decided to wait till the extra became a little more extra... the 'thoda aur chahiye' symptom of the Syndrome perhaps.

After accounting for the global meltdown, record lows that the Sensex has fallen to... 20K now stands at around 8K. 12 grands may be peanuts for the rest of the world... but for someone afflicted by the First Time Investor Syndrome... I'm left asking myself... 'Why Me!!!'

an unfinished dream...

A clear dark sky... a bright white moon... a pleasant silence... the music like sound of the waves lashing against the sand... and there we were... he and I, hand in hand, trying hard to see what tomorrow holds for us. We barely spoke... but the silence said a lot more than words can weigh!

We were weaving a tomorrow for ourselves... oblivious to what the big bad mean world had in store for us. But then who hasn't heard of... Who Dares Wins!!! We dared... to dream.

Life was like never before... everything around just seemed so special. We did things we hated to do before... just coz it made the other happy. A perfect life is hard to have. But somehow our life seemed perfect and complete now.

Nothing comes easy in life. We had our ups and downs... downs more often!!! But somehow we tried hard to fight out everything that came our way.

Things were slowly falling in place... our tomorrow didn't seem too far away... we decided to have a fairy tale beginning to our tale...

There I was... all set to step into a new life... a new world... a new tomorrow... woven only for me and him... and there he was... just around the corner... atop a white horse... galloping away towards me with a smile on his face...

I stood there with a smile on my face and a tear in the eye... waiting impatiently for him to get closer and whisk me up close to him... and ride me into our tomorrow... the tomorrow we were longing for.

He reached me at last... stretched out his hand... I held it too... and then all of a sudden everything froze and came to a standstill!!!

There was a music playing out of the blue... wedding bells chiming... naaah... something that went like... 'Tujhse Naraaz Nahi Zindagi... Hairaan hoon main....' the song from the movie Masoom.... and the music just got louder and louder... till I woke up to hear myself tell...'Damn!!! It was all a dream!!!'.

It was my mobile alarm tone that put a mean and rude end to the tomorrow of my dreams!!! I was left all alone staring at the ceiling... and almost screaming out aloud... 'WHY ME!!!'

PS: I haven't given up dreaming... I don't believe in leaving things unfinished... dreams are no exception!!!